Monday, March 22, 2010


I've been struggling with feelings of boredom at work.  I know, join the club, right?  I am thankful that I have a job, but I've always wanted to do something more than just keep a seat warm.  For six years I was an elementary school music teacher and it was challenging.  The material and lesson plan research was interesting and the children were definitely a big part of the reason that I was completely exhausted by the end of the day.  When I decided to quit I was so burned out that I didn't care if I ever stepped foot in another school as long as I lived.  I chose HR as my second career because I thought it would be interesting and a fairly smooth transition from education.  Lately, I have found myself thinking about teaching again.  I suppose the schedule is very appealing when you have children, but mostly I miss the feeling that I am doing something.  I miss the feeling that I am actually using my brain and making a difference. 

I am about one year away from finishing a MA in HR and I really don't want to drop out now.  I think that I can help people by working in HR, but my work seems a tad meaningless at the moment.  I am going to try to look for a new job, but with the economy and the space program's budget woes, I'm not sure I will find anything that is as close and convienint.  I will probably end up stayng put and trying to talk to my boss about potenial growth.  I hope I can take on some interesting projects soon.  Being bored makes each day seem like two.

On the home front we had L's 2 year birthday party, which was very nice.  I could tell by the way our livingroom looked afterward that everyone had a good time.

E was 9 months on the 15th and is in the 95th percentile for weight and the 82nd percentile for height.  Yikes. We're working on weaning her from her midnight bottle and hoping she sleeps through the night soon.  

The mountain of boxes from the move has not gotten smaller, unfortunately, and the unpacking fairy that I ordered has not arrived.  I suppose I will have to do it myself.  How disappointing.

Friday, March 12, 2010


There were a lot of things I didn't appreciate in my younger days.  I didn't appreciate my wrinkle free skin or my flat stomach.  I didn't appreciate my ability to eat anything and not gain any weight. (Those days are O-VER.)  Most of all, I didn't appreciate my ability to sleep when I wanted.  Tired on a Saturday? Take a nap!  Feel like sleeping in?  Go ahead!  Oh, how recklessly I wasted my opportunities to sleep!  How carelessly I tossed aside a suggestion to "get some rest" or "take a nap." The current me wants to go back and yell at the 20-something me, "You fool!!  Sleep!"

I feel like I will never catch up on sleep. I am obsessed with it.  E still gets up a few times a night, or more, because of teething.  L is still adjusting to his new room and has been waking me up by coming to the side of the bed and handing me his pj bottoms and his diaper.  At 5am.  I feel like I am swinging back and forth on an endless ride of exhaustion, coffee and sugar.  I want to get off.  I want both kids to sleep so that I can sleep.  I hear about people whose kids sleep. Who are they?  How does this happen?  Being this tired is like having super PMS.  It makes you emotional and irrational.  I don't want to get all political, but sleep deprivation is torture, people.  If they need my kids at Gitmo, we may be able to work something out.  One week with my little angels and those terrorists will sing like canaries.

Monday, March 8, 2010

The Plan 2010: February Update

The month of February was a blur of boxes, sickness and confusion.  The boxes are good because it means we MOVED!  The confusion means that I cannot find anything.  Well, that's not entirely true, but I will think of something I need and then realize that I have no earthly idea where it is.  The sickness struck our house again.  L was diagnosed with strep and was put on another round of antibiotics which seemed to disagree with his stomach.  We spent the wee hours of last weekend up and holding  a bucket under him while he threw up all night.  In the morning, he was fine.  We took milk out of his diet and it seemed to help, buy then he had a relapse and got sick at school.  So, I stopped giving him his meds and the throwing up stopped, as well.  He has his 2 year check-up today and I will be discussing this with his doctor.  This week, it was my turn to be knocked down.  For the past two days I have been completely flattened by a stomach bug,  It was not fun, but I did lose a few pounds, so maybe this is the weight loss jump start I need!

The move sort of put everything on hold this month.  We did eat out more, although that has stopped in the past week.  I have not been great about taking my vitamins, but since my stomach seems to like me again, I will be back on track with that, as well.  March has two big goals for me:

1)Start exercising!! - Our new neighborhood has a wonderful greenbelt and I am going to start using it this weekend.  I have been inspired by Danielle's success with the couch to 5K program and might give that a shot if I can work out a consistent schedule.

2)Get everyone healthy - This has been a hard winter and I am looking forward to a little more time in the sun.  I want to get us out of the house a little more and make sure that the kids are more active.  A little fresh air and sunshine can go a long way towards making everyone feel better, I think.

3) Get Organized - I have so many boxes to go through it's amazing and completely overwhelming.
My goal is to try to go through at least one box per night.  People tell me that it's the best way to unpack, but any tips that you have would be welcome.
Happy March, everyone!