Some days the news just weighs me down. For the past few days the big internet hubbub has been about Amazon and its respective cancellation of objectionable material for Kindle. (By the way, they still sell videos and picture books with underage (11-13) year olds without clothes on, so no big victory there.) Then you bring up your favorite news site or watch the evening news and there is always a story about a child being abused or killed or dying in a fire. I don't know if its because I'm a parent now or if the exhaustion of life has made me more emotional, but these stories just makes me die a little inside. I see the link to the story and I want to look away, but nine times out of ten, I click on it and the sadness crushes me.
I can't relate to anyone who would ever harm a child and a part of me wants to scream and rage and the injustice. As the economy has worsened, so have the incidents of mindless violence and people snapping under the pressure. Every holiday season the donation boxes go out at work and the Salvation Army angel tree cards are available. My pocketbook prevents me from taking all of the cards, but I wish I could. I take two, one boy and one girl, and I try to make myself feel better by knowing that they will have something new, something that they wanted, to open on Christmas morning. I know there is no way to heal all of the sadness in the world and there is no way I can control it. All I can do is hug my kids and hope that I am raising two loving people to live in the world that might have a chance to cancel out some of the evil.
Does the news get you down, too? Do you have a hard time turning away from stories that you know will break your heart?